Why Am I Not There Yet?

You can’t solve a problem with the same mindset in which it was created. -Spirit, to me, this morning

“We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.” – Albert Einstein

After awakening from a blessedly blissful sleep, the thoughts fired off in rapid succession, Why hasn’t xyz worked out for me? I’ve worked so hard; I’ve been intentional and asked for Spirit to step in. Why don’t I have this yet? And underneath that: Am I not enough?

I soon felt an old familiar feeling creep through my chest: of lack, not-enough-ness, and thinking there *is a problem* to fix.

Sound familiar? You work so hard on yourself. You get the help, the coach, you listen to your intuition. And still. And yet.

I’ve learned to protect my peacefulness by slowing down to address untruths when they arise, I took a pause. Proceeding with my morning practice of Ground-Root-Center, which is the way I reconnect to my energy body and Divine Consciousness, here’s what I received:

-especially by mid-life, the Work is unlearning, clearing, letting go of what is keeping us from Peace. Seeing where we are in Judgment, shame, guilt, inauthenticity, self-doubt, self-criticism. We must develop awareness around where we are stuck in untrue assessments of our self, others, and life. That is the Work. Not arriving at the “thing” that we think will bring us the happiness we seek. When and if the thing appears, that will happen as a result of having let go of all obstructions to it. If that thing doesn’t appear, something else will. Regardless, we get to be peaceful.

-lack is not a creative force for change. If we are in a mindset of lack, judgment, or truly anything other than the Light and Peace that we are, we are not creating. We are only replicating old/untrue conditioning– that same stuff keeping us squarely where we are.

-there is no problem.  Similar to sitting in the energy of a problem and trying to create from that mindset and feeling, so long as we are in the energy and feeling of “this is a problem” we will not access anything new, or other. Your Ego might argue: of course this (health, money, calling, relationship, etc.) is a problem. This is a perception (the Rescue card says: “The perception of a problem is the problem.”). Unless you are without food or shelter, you are a Soul having an experience. You may be surprised when you see how easy it is to redirect this energy of “problem” into other curiosities and pursuits you find far more peaceful to explore.

Thinking about all of this, I remembered when I began working with my Teacher in 2016. At the start of every session, for years, my burning question was always, “what should I do about my work?” – which felt very much up in the air, as it was changing. This made me feel insecure. That was the “problem” my Ego had identified. Yet despite wanting to talk about it, we never got around to it. For years, we sort of circumnavigated it, walked around it like the perimeter of a big immovable mountain. And guess what? By getting to know everything else that was around and beneath this mountain – it’s landscape, the conditions it was exposed to while growing, current conditions, what grew underneath, what made it what it was, what moved the mountain, what flowers and weather it enjoyed, who and what it loved… what began to happen instead was this deeper Inner Work surfaced—everything I’ve been sharing with you.

That was a (massive!) lesson for me in letting go of the Ego driven goal-orientated striving we are culturally taught, and instead allowing a bigger perspective to organically emerge over time. In fact, living in Hawaii has similarly taught the value of slow meandering.

We have been in constant change for so long; sometimes it’s hard to know what to focus on; where to put our intentionality and dedication, and what area to put our magnificent ability to co-Create towards. Here are a few more ideas I received about this:

…Sometimes the Work is becoming completely aware, and then letting go, of old conditioning. Conditioning that caused us to veer left when a right would’ve felt better for our Soul. Or, sometimes the Work is doing same so we can move unencumbered and free into the next phase of our evolution. This isn’t a quick process; it took decades to get this way so it can take years to un-do.

…Sometimes the Work is remembering and integrating our relationship to our Divinity, aka our Authentic True Self, into our daily self-awareness. The part of us who is unencumbered and free, always. The part of us who creates and so lives in solution. The part of us who is playful, Light, remembers her identity as Love and knows that when she is in alignment with her Soul, she can and will create anything. The Divine True Self IS Abundance (see: Abundance card). Recognizing we already have everything we need.

…Sometimes the Work is Patience and Curiosity. I was talking with another healer last week about the changes we’ve all been experiencing over the past years. I said, “It’s difficult to know how to move forward when the old structures and ways we used to do things just aren’t in place anymore.” She agreed, and added: “Everything is also moving a lot more slowly now than it used to.” We both spoke to one another about how the varied healing practices we’ve learned and practiced over the years have evolved as we have. Now we are in this place of being open and curious about how all we already know will re-form and reintegrate.

In a nutshell: The Work is always about undoing what is keeping you from being and feeling okay. It is: Getting out of your own way.

The next time you have a thought like: “why am I not there yet?” or “why am I not having the life/answers/experiences I want to have yet?”, I invite you to consider any or all of the above. Instead of reverting to old mental conditioning revolving around lack, or anything else you’ve been telling yourself about yourself or your life, how would it feel to simply allow the above to be True for you? Would you feel better? Peaceful? Okay? Good, even? Could you actually be okay with being exactly where you are, right now?

It isn’t easy to investigate limiting habits of relating to your Self, your Divinity, but it is worthwhile, meaningful, rewarding Work.

Remember:

You are a magnificent being who is remembering her True Identity as Light, Love, Peace, Acceptance, Ease and Grace.

You are living within a larger Consciousness that absolutely requires ever more patience, openness, curiosity and Grace With What Is.

Only by re-centering in Light and letting go of old conditioning –all that is untrue– will the new answers you are looking for emerge.

P.S.: I created the Intuitive Energy Divination Deck to help myself through the above processes; honestly, I created it to offer myself more Ease, Peace, Permission and Grace within my own unfolding, into a necessary and new way of Be-ing. If you resonate with the message I’ve shared, you will certainly feel supported by this magical deck!

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